19 January, 2012

A chat I had regarding a perspective of mine on faith and my deconversion.


skyrlundy: One last moment on the religious thing. The thing that gets me thinking as I fall asleep.
You, and I individually know more than every person that penned the bible knew. All of them.
Collectively.
Added up together.
Stand them all together and we know more than any of them.
Actually

lo: welllllll it depends on the theme of jeopardy that night
to be honst

skyrlundy: HA.

lo: honest

skyrlundy: Wait.
Wait.
Verifiable objective knowledge.
They lived in a time where sickness was caused by demons.
The earth was flat.
We were at the center of the solar system.

lo: if they are asking about levitical law and geography of the early holy roman empire and the socio-cultural political climate of babylon- WE ARE FUCKED MY FRIEND

skyrlundy: Objection, relevance?
They may have social and cultural understanding.
But.

lo: we have smartphones
:>

skyrlundy: For the important things that shape our understanding of the world.
They know nothing.
This is especially relevant in how it affects their morality and understanding of a greater picture.
When someone comes to me and says "have you heard the good word"
The first thing that comes to mind is "You're defending a perspective written by a disjointed group of men who were not aware of anything."
In modern times. People defend an entire code and understanding based on circumstantial ignorance.
To no fault of the original writers.
But to the fault of those that defend it's texts.
This puts everything that they are talking about in the realm of alchemy, and astrology.
Even for the fact that if they got something right, it was entirely by accident.

lo: no, i totally hear/understand what yr saying.
i cannot help myself from getting all jokey about it. ITS WHAT I DO/

skyrlundy: Even the people who want to tell me about the good news know more than the guy who wrote the gospels.
That keeps me up at night.

lo: i think that i definitely have a strange....leniency? soft spot?
for religion

skyrlundy: I understand it.

lo: i didnt always. i was staunchly super pissed about it for a long time
i think that systematically looking at cultures/religions thru the eyes of anthropologists, with kind of a sense of wonder and respect for the things that people made- including their own mythology
DEFINITELY had an impact on me
in that regard
and i also think that- embarrassingly- my own resolution of open issues with my pastor-father helped soften me up a bit about it, too

skyrlundy: True.

lo: i wish that i could say that i was above such appeals to emotion
but
im not
and i have to be honest about that

skyrlundy: Understandable.

lo: additionally, my moms side of the family is catholic

skyrlundy: I have been in that position.

lo: my grandma was SUPER catholic
my aunt maria has now sort of taken over my grandmas role after her death, and now SHE prays for us and gives us a benediction everytime we leave her house to return to our homes
and
i like it. not because i feel warded
but bc its a familiar ritual and its 100% motivated by love and it makes me feel good
i also like going to church sometimes. any church. i just like being there and watching modern day ritual in action.
whether its a buddhist temple or a mormon church or a catholic service or a christian science or synagogue or whatever
i just am curious
i just want to know
want to see what its like
its the opportunity to see it play out in real time right in front of me, instead of reading about it
...i am genuinely embarrassed at having told you thissssssss
hahaha

skyrlundy: You shouldn't be.
After my self deconversion (I wasn't deconverted by anyone), I was intensely defensive of religion.
I was also more knowledgeable than most of the other religious people that I knew. I was really into it.
I had years of wrestling with the feeling in my head that I was constantly being watched.
Unshackling myself from guilt.
Facing a world in which there was no spiritual safety net.
It was terrifying.
I couldn't let someone speak poorly of it because even though I was no longer in it, I still gave it creedence. In a transitional period, I disagreed with the actual content of the bible, and the beliefs of superiority, and the treatment of gays, women, and those not of the faith so much, so entirely much, that I rejected faith and accepted my going to hell, in protest because I knew it was wrong, but wasn't strong enough to know that it was all a nasty nightmare.
It was a very intense moment, like my intellect breaking out of the shell of repression.
In a lot of ways, this traumatic experience is on the shoulders of an incredible amount of religious people. When we speak of the "limits of knowledge" when you and I talk to people, it's not just their limit of knowledge.
You're on the brink of absolute fear. Existential crisis. Panic.

lo: so. flarbing. true.

skyrlundy: The defensiveness is entirely in a mock self-preservation as they, and at one time, myself, have absolutely no point of reference without the security of brainwashing.

lo: all of it. everything yr saying is resonating. pls continue.

skyrlundy: My friends who had either not grown up religious, or had more of a Disneyland experience with bible study- I resented them.
I resented them because the nonbelievers had been demonized my whole life.
I resented the happy go lucky "christians" because it was obvious that they did not know the words from which they claimed a derivation of belief.
That point in my life was so incredibly mentally and emotionally lonely, I went through that alone because I couldn't turn to the church I was running away from because I knew of it's lies.
I couldn't seek solace in nonbelievers, because I knew more than they did.
So.
This is where my perspective comes from, and now, so many years later I have no form of resentment, anger, or bad feelings towards the faithful.
But when faith and religion are spoken of as a benign choice- I know that to be very incorrect.
Even in America, where like I was saying the other night, we have the complete ease of thinking we believe something, and not knowing a single thing about it.
We have that luxury.
But deep inside my brain, I know that this level of faith that resides in a good amount of the religious in our country.
Could be triggered to do very bad things.
Like we see in the middle east.
Like we've seen in Africa.

lo: [totally. absolutely. [the other funny thing is that even people who say that they understand in and 'believe' evolution- dont really. we're sooooo glibly ignorant.]

skyrlundy: Like we've seen during the inquisition and witch trials.
This is my picture of religion. It's makes monsters of people, and worse.
I'm not going to say that it's something I fear, but it is something that I understand.

lo: i think that religion gives something for that instinct to cloak itself in- but the impetus to NUKE IT FROM THE SKY when things are different or other than ourselves is sort of innate

skyrlundy: It is, but nothing is worse than a tribalism in modern days that is reinforced by divine providence.
A belief, that no matter how challenged as a whole, will continue to be believed and fought for.

lo: ok yes. that is hell of true.
tweet that.
'nothing is worse than a tribalism in modern days that is reinforced by divine providence.'
\that
BC I WANT TO FAV AND RT
also i want to snuggle

skyrlundy: [me too]
So if we were standing next to each other, overlooking the world, with what I've just said in mind...
The takeaway is that it is entirely dangerous to have beliefs which cannot be changed by rational thought.
Faith is incredibly dangerous to ourselves and our species.

16 January, 2012

I had a great weekend.

These were some of my favorite moments from this weekend. Read books
and talk over coffee. This pic makes me smile.

10 January, 2012

New Facebook cover picture.


Doppler effect graphic, and a Richard Dawkins quote. 

04 January, 2012


Facebook cover picture. This one was a little popular.

29 December, 2011

Radiohead - All I Need, as you haven't seen it.


Amazing visualizations for a most amazing song. Incredible.
Thanks to Lorealle for finding this, she's incredible too.

21 December, 2011

Workout Music

After getting over my bit of an injury that took me off my running habit for about 3 weeks, I'm finally getting back to it in the last week or so. Those three weeks took a toll on my fitness. Fact: I wouldn't be able to stay motivated without music. I need something pounding my ears. I made the joke that Lady Gaga is in the playlist so I can pretend she's chasing me and I have to get away, but really, some remixes are great. Here are some bands and maybe a selected track or two from each. I love music.


  • Basement Jaxx
    • Raindrops
  • Benny Benassi
  • The Black Keys
    • Repetition Kills You
  • Boys Noize
  • Calvin Harris
  • The Crystal Method (favorite to get along to)
    • True Grit
    • Busy Child
    • Acetone
  • deadmau5
    • The 16th Hour
    • Cocktail Queen feat. Melleefresh
    • Sofi Needs a Ladder (Ft. Sofi)
  • Hybrid
    • Kill City
    • Dream Stalker
    • Falling Down
  • Lady Gaga
    • Bad Romance (Skrillex Remix)
  • Ladytron
    • Destroy Everything You Touch
  • Le Castle Vania
  • Nero
    • Must Be the Feeling
    • Welcome Reality VIP
  • Pendulum
    • Salt In The Wounds
    • The Terminal
    • Propane Nightmares
  • She
  • Skrillex
    • Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites (Dirtyphonics Remix)
  • Soulwax
  • Steve Aoki
  • Tiesto
  • Vitalic
  • Wolfgang Gartner
  • Yeah Yeah Yeahs
    • Zero
    • Heads Will Roll

Admittedly, I don't listen to all of this music when I'm not on my feet because really, who still listens to Trance? It's a 6 hour mix. If I run long enough to hear any song twice, someone stop me because I'm trying to kill myself.

16 December, 2011

Panicked moment, or, why I read so damn much.

It's pictures like this that make me afraid of running out of time to read, because you can only read so many books before death. If you've ever heard the man below quote great works from memory, you know what I mean. What you're looking for, is always the next book away. My heroes in life are the minds, the thoughts they produce, the things that come about from them, and the men & women that encapsulate them. They breed fearlessness in their example, where no words and no thoughts are too holy to be held to the sword of reason and logic. That is the ownership of the world around us, to bathe in and conjure the words since our inception as the highest form of intelligence on this planet. To own language, expand, modify, and grow it. The weapons of our day are words. There's nothing that could be so liberating.

It is for this reason, among many, that I fail to see how some can live their entire life to the death by one book.

You were a devilishly sharp man, and a hero.
We're at a loss. Those shoes are impossible to fill.
My next whiskey is in your memory Hitch.


I'll die with a bookmark in the middle of the one I never got to finish.

08 December, 2011

I think this is a good idea.

Think twice as much as you read,
read twice as much as you talk,
talk half as much as you listen.




06 December, 2011

Path. My social network solution.

I've already expressed my frustrations with Facebook, and Google+, and as with anything else it comes down to the decision to use them. Unfortunately for these, selecting an alternative is difficult when you're the only one- thereby removing a significant portion of the "social" aspect. Onward...

I signed up for Path about a year ago, right out the gate on announcement. Back then, it was more a multiplatform Instagram style sharing app with some emotionally expressive smileys and hearts to show some love for your stream. At this point I can't even remember if there was proper commenting. Anyway, it was slow to take off, but I hear eventually found a following for people to share, off major social networks. Neat. A niche app that served the non-Twitter user in a similar yet photo oriented format- however not for me.

Enter Path 2.0

My path, with the share menu
extended.Gorgeous.
Click to enbiggen.

These days, post 2.0 launch, Path has introduced something incredible. A personal sharing app for the closer people in your life. People who you enjoy sharing pictures, videos, where you're at, and little notes. There's even an "I'm asleep" and "Woke up at..." to let people know that you're off the map for a while. All information is private, not publicly accessible, and is strictly shared only with the people you allow friendship. You're even limited to 150 total friends based on an Oxford study that measures your true social reach for those that matter most in your life. This isn't about 500 friends, and people you went to school with but don't talk to anymore- it's a journal and communication platform for the real people in your life. Not to mention, this concept is married to the absolutely most gorgeous user interface on any app (in my opinion). The layout and features are incredible- and it's exclusively for mobile.


Usability and Integration

If you're how I'll probably admit to being, other social networks are still going to be there. You can use Path to update your Facebook profile, publish to Twitter, and check in via Foursquare. Tumblr users enjoy integration as well. It's truly thoughtful, and useful. 

The image at the top is you "cover" picture and is selected by the user the same way a profile pic is selected. The vertical timeline is simple and intuitive. The lower left has a constant post button in the shape of a "+" that rolls to an X to close. The icons show (from the top) Pictures, Who you're with, Location/Check in, Music, Status/Note, Sleep/Wake. Again, gorgeous and thoughtful layout- the way it should be.


Audio posts launch a clip
player
.
Audio/Visual Media
Path handles media well, really well. Still photography and video posts nicely, and the still camera has Instagram-esque filters, most of which are more heavy on effect- something I also like. Both of these can be easily tagged with people and location, at your discretion, and posted to other networks of course. This is becoming the norm in mobile social media. Something I'm really into is how it handles music. Clicking the music note to post something you're listening to posts an album cover that when clicked by friends, pops up with an audible clip of the song, a link to see more songs by that artist, and an iTunes link to buy. When you explore the band- you can see who else listens to it, both among friends, and the entire Path network. Kind of a mini-Last.fm feature. When posting, it shows recent tracks played in the music app on your phone, and provides a search box to find an artist/song. The integration with the phone is stellar, seamless. All posts of all kinds can be commented on, and assigned a heart or an emoticon of sorts. Good stuff.

Alternative to Existing Social Media?
My all star lineup. Path, Instagram,
Twitter, Goodreads. FB & G+ aren't
there.

Yes, and maybe. Depending on your desires and expectations from the networks you use. I have a personal desire to dial down my exposure to a lot of people I am not close with, while retaining a true connection with my close friends- to that end, Path is perfect. If you can see that use, while retaining use of established medias, the integration is well executed. My media lineup consists of Path, Instagram, Twitter, and Goodreads. Beyond that, I don't feel as if adding to that will give me anything I don't already have. I feel like getting back to the heart of what it means to communicate with friends and family, an interaction based on relationship. It complements my networks and gets it done. right.

Cost

Free. Hooray.

Now I just have to get more of my friends to see the light, and I don't think it will be that hard.... I'm not the only one tired of the alternatives. For more direct information from the creators, check out Path.com